One of my favorite worship songs is Do It Again by Mack Brock, Chris Brown, Matt Redman and Steven Furtick, released in 2018. The song itself builds with the beat and general feel, but those lyrics…
The very first line; “Walking around these walls, I thought by now they’d fall”.
Have you been there? Who hasn’t really, right? This is real life. Things happen. Stuff goes wrong. And sometimes you wait a really long time before you see what you’re hoping will come to pass. You are trusting God…still, because, quite frankly, what else is there? Where else is there to run? You’ve done all the things. And yet, the walls haven’t fallen. Heck, there isn’t even a crack to be seen.
The next line though, “But You have never failed me yet”.
That one three-letter word “But” says so, so much. But, in all the hard places…”You have never failed me yet.” And that’s what gets me the most. How many times have you been in such a place of despair, where the pain is insurmountable and you can barely catch a breath, much less a break?
But there’s more: “Waiting for change to come” can be the hardest thing, especially when you have absolutely no evidence or a hint of change on the horizon. But even still, you know “The battle’s won, for You have never failed me yet”.
It’s because of the hard times that you know He is here with you now because He was with you then, and all the “thens” that have occurred in your life.
What if He works in all the “thens” in your life? What if that’s the place you find Him because He has designed it to be so?
It’s no accident that you are where you are in your life. You may not have seen it coming and perhaps it took you totally by surprise. But just because you didn’t see this real-time event taking place in your life doesn’t mean it caught God off guard. It didn’t.
I am reminded of a recent devotion from Seeing Beautiful Again by Lisa Terkeurst called Your Happily Ever After?. She talks about living in the “I don’t knows” of life. It’s the same concept. God uses the “I don’t knows” and the “thens” times of life to bring beauty into the pile of ashes that we presently call life.
And another thing, He can use it for your good and His glory.
I have a friend who often prays “God, show off! And use me in this painful situation to do that”. He can’t show off if there isn’t something miraculous in the works and that usually involves pain of some kind. Even when you can’t make sense of it. Even when it’s the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do.
Whatever you are going through, whatever mess is happening in the most intimate parts of your life, that’s where He loves to show up and show off. Don’t give up! Treat yourself with kindness. Be gentle when you need to, but then get back up and do the next thing, whatever that looks like for you, knowing that God has never failed you yet, and He never will.